From the time women are little girls, they are poisoned with manthrax. They are led to believe in mystical White Knights and Prince Charmings that never arrive or if they do arrive, they mysteriously turn into an asshole wrapped in tinfoil before Act II. How can anyone who has unrealistic expectations about relationships have a successful relationship? What I learned along the way was that some people aren't meant to be together and that love no matter how intense it may be, sometimes isn't enough to make a relationship last. What I learned as a child who endured years of sexual abuse, is if someone who is supposed to love me will do something that hurtful, what is the rest of the world going to do to me? For such children, all White Knights and Prince Charmings are only a wolves in sheep's clothing!
Strong women walk away from relationships that don't work...they don't settle for something just to escape from being alone. Weak women unfortunately stay put and remain in relationships that are unhealthy and unsatisfying. Woman with unresolved issues always seek out men who are bad for them. They have a self-fulfilling prophesy that lets history repeat itself time and time again. Theirs seems almost like a curse from which there is no escape.
Now, I'm wondering if the reality I see and have lived all these years, will prevent me from ever having a successful relationship. I wonder if I may have a hair trigger on my "fight or flight" mechanism that makes me bail out way too early and if I exhaust all avenues to resolve problems before calling it quits. Many say you just have to go with the one with the least amount of flaws and baggage, but is it wrong to feel that love should be more than just a toss up between the lesser of evils?
Gratitude statement: I feel as though my current journey of sorting through things with the help of my yoyo inspector, will help me find answers to my questions. For that I am thankful!
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