Monday, March 18, 2013

MILDRED'S Rx FOR SERENITY

There's no easy formula to get through difficult times with your sanity still intact. I'm sure each of us has our own method of coping (anything from self-medicating, banging our heads on a wall, contemplating creatively painful ways to make our source of pain suffer as much as we suffer, bellowing out a good old primal scream to quiet walks on the beach, exercising, writing a stinging blog post, listening to music, deep breathing, etc.) I find that when I try to control a situation or someone else's behavior I suffer immensely from frustration, disappointment and emotional exhaustion. It wasn't until I finally was able to let go and let live that I achieved a certain inner peace. I now pick my battles wisely. The small stuff I simply let go and the larger, more important things that need a change, I allow the change to come from within and not externally. I simply stopped looking for solutions in the eyes of others.

In the case of my mother who a few years ago drove me to the brink of having a nervous breakdown, I simply use common sense now. Her health and well-being are first and most important. The rest, like it or not are her decisions and wishes. Sure, she still does exactly as she's always done, but it's me who has changed how those things affect me. It's no longer a power struggle between us. I've discovered we can enjoy whatever time left we have together without a perpetual tug-o-war. The thought of my last memories of her being so negative didn't sit well with me. I knew I needed to change that. As for my siblings and their relationship with her...well, it's exactly that...their relationship and not mine. They are the ones who have to look themseleves in the mirror. It just isn't worth all the chaos and bad feelings it causes by placing myself in the middle and it rarely accomplishes anything positive for anyone involved. And I really do feel okay with my present stance. That's what matters most, isn't it?

About a year ago I taped the Serenity Prayer on the wall above my computer. I say it EVERY day and some days I say it MANY times. No, I'm not a religious person, but I do find a certain unmistaken wisdom in those 25 words. I'm not entirely sure about the "GOD" part, but in my case, I believe "God" is the inner peace and serenity I seek and not some ageless, mystical being sitting somewhere in judgment of us all. My God is forgiving and allows me to love unconditionally even those people who have hurt me the most in life. My God allows compromise. I no longer have to be right or have things go the way I want them. All that has fallen by the wayside as my perspective and priorities have changed. My God allows me to see that everything happens just as it's supposed to happen and that even the horrible, devastating things in life have a purpose by making me a stronger and more compassionate person. I've learned making mistakes is okay as long as I learn from my mistakes. I've learned NO ONE is perfect and that getting through the most difficult days is done by putting one foot in front of the other and not letting pain paralyze me. I've learned that I am who I am because of ALL the experiences in my life. I've come to believe that I wouldn't have these insights without the pain...or without the joys I have felt along the way. I no longer feel a need to apologize for my past or to place blame. It is what it is! I can either find comfort and strength in knowing I'm a resourceful survivor or I can drown in my own pain by allowing myself to remain an emotional cripple. I choose courage and wisdom! I choose sanity for the first time in my life!

Friday, March 15, 2013

THE IDES OF MARCH

The one thing I find glaringly apparent about those who blog regardless of the person's age, sex, cultural background, economic status or sexual orientation is that we all hold the right to express our feelings and opinions via the written word in high regard. The technology of the past few decades has provided us with an excellent medium for doing just that with countless people we would have otherwise never known. I truly wish more people would come out of the shadows and learn to voice what's brewing just below the surface because you never know when sharing a personal experience or an opinion might help someone else through a difficult time. Even negative feedback seems to have a home here and often times has a positive outcome by bringing people closer together.

The things I write about come mostly from my personal experiences in life and from the thoughts that randomly race through my head. Although I'm fast approaching that golden age of being older than dirt, I find it refreshing that a blog can be ageless and timeless. To be able to bridge the generational gap and find a common ground or to be able to reach across the gender gap and make the other side have a lightbulb moment keeps us all forever young and acutely human. We don't mature into an entirely new or different person, we just become an older and hopefully wiser version of who we were when we were young. Basically, I think regardless of our differences, we all strive to maintain a certain pursuit of happiness and sometimes that pursuit gets clouded by the horrors of everyday life, but without that pursuit, life is void of meaning and purpose. So for what it's worth, I hope all your lives are filled with happy hunting, endless lightbulb moments and the courage to remain open-minded. I want to thank each of you who visit Mildred for taking the time to take advantage of your freedom of speech by leaving heartfelt and thought-provoking comments. I love you all!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

STAR CROSSED LOVERS

In the not too distant past I used Yahoo messenger to communicate with my friends and was constantly bombarded with instant messages from scumbags, maggots and freaky bottom feeders wanting to infect my life with their BS. The following was a quickie chat I had with some unknown entity while chatting with a friend of mine in Maine. If nothing else, let it be known that Mildred Ratched always sets the record straight!
Nov 03 9:34 PM tallmale6ft8in: ASL

Nov 03 9:34 PM KGM: seriously?

Nov 03 9:34 PM tallmale6ft8in: SERIOUSLY!

Nov 03 9:34 PM tallmale6ft8in: WHAT TOWN U FROM AND WHAT'S YOUR AGE?

Nov 03 9:34 PM tallmale6ft8in: That's serious. Did I stuttttttterrrrrrrrrrr?

Nov 03 9:35 PM KGM: You want my location and age, but you don't want to know if I'm male or female? I guess some people don't care what they get as long as they get something.

Nov 03 9:35 PM tallmale6ft8in: Why did u come off with seriously?

Nov 03 9:35 PM KGM: because I'm a bitch and I didnt realize people still did the ASL thing...just was surprised.

Nov 03 9:36 PM tallmale6ft8in: I do

Nov 03 9:36 PM tallmale6ft8in: Is that a bad thing?

Nov 03 9:36 PM tallmale6ft8in: ok whats your age?

Nov 03 9:36 PM KGM: no,but to be honest it isnt very creative. It shows early developmental problems and a tendency towards having social Torrettes syndrome.

Nov 03 9:37 PM tallmale6ft8in: u are right

Nov 03 9:37 PM KGM: I'm always right and I'm not a day over being older than dirt...you?

Nov 03 9:37 PM tallmale6ft8in: so u are 40

Nov 03 9:37 PM KGM: Only in my dreams

Nov 03 9:37 PM tallmale6ft8in: thats shelf life of dirt I think

Nov 03 9:38 PM tallmale6ft8in: haha

Nov 03 9:38 PM tallmale6ft8in: 60?

Nov 03 9:38 PM KGM: Gotta admire people who laugh at their own jokes, but doesn't it get lonely out there all by yourself? How old would you like me to be?

Nov 03 9:38 PM tallmale6ft8in: a sassy nymph, aren't you?

Nov 03 9:38 PM tallmale6ft8in: u single?

Nov 03 9:39 PM KGM: I only fly solo.

Nov 03 9:39 PM tallmale6ft8in: what town u in?

Nov 03 9:39 PM KGM: this seems pretty one-sided

Nov 03 9:39 PM KGM: what's your story?

Nov 03 9:39 PM tallmale6ft8in: oh I'm from Waterville

Nov 03 9:39 PM tallmale6ft8in: 49

Nov 03 9:39 PM tallmale6ft8in: single

Nov 03 9:39 PM tallmale6ft8in: 0 kids

Nov 03 9:40 PM tallmale6ft8in: want more info hun?

Nov 03 9:40 PM KGM: This doesn't seem to be much of a story.

Nov 03 9:40 PM tallmale6ft8in: 10inch cock here

Nov 03 9:40 PM tallmale6ft8in: cut

Nov 03 9:40 PM tallmale6ft8in: thick

Nov 03 9:40 PM tallmale6ft8in: multiple cummer

Nov 03 9:40 PM KGM: that means you must be a Republican prone to believing fairytales

Nov 03 9:41 PM tallmale6ft8in: clinton type, huh? haha

Nov 03 9:41 PM KGM: There you go again with the "haha". I sure hope you find whatever you're looking for

Nov 03 9:41 PM tallmale6ft8in: I gotta admit that lady that let him shoot his load on her dress that was an awesome setup

Nov 03 9:42 PM KGM: hey, we all have our crosses to bear

Nov 03 9:42 PM tallmale6ft8in: u like bigger size cocks hun?

Nov 03 9:43 PM KGM: nope...I like dicks I have to find with a magnifying glass

The bottom feeder exits thus, END OF CHAT!